safety in numbers

i look around only to realise that i dont belong
people saw what they wanted see
i saw my worse fear metarialised
inability to be with the crowd
was it me? or them? at fault?

like an eye-sore, longing for belonging
as the day is filled with melancholy
seeking solace, somewhere in your hapiness
losing my grip and fall into oblivion
was it me? or them? at fault?

i am insignificant
without further explanation
i am magnificent
only in my own twisted dimension
i am, after all, just a fragment of my own imagination
seeking safety in numbers

peanut butter cookies (re-post with some edit)

she takes the pill, in her head it's real,
she cuts her hand, his name all in blood,
she take her life, and she leave the hive,
no romeo, no juliet and no happy ending,
love is dead,

deny your aneroxia, no food for thoughts
gothic eyes of hers, another one i fear,
a pageant to your name, and the price for fame?
you pay for names, all you got is shame
the needs desire, is the need in dire
no there's no game,no there's no prize,
lust is dust,

gunned with the looks, a prowler on hooks,
levity against gravity, a mutiny against naivity,
pull the string, make him sting,
no, he's no angel, no, he's not worthy,
attraction is physical,

bring me back to a life once real
bring me back to a life once humble
bring me back to a life once a lie
fabrication of the truth ?
or a mere uncertainty
of life heading the downward spiral ?