superficial star

and i wanna be a movie star
saving the world over and over
living in a trailer with superficial poster
and yeah, i'm a movie star
i'm acting my whole life in front of you

and i wanna be a super star
my live is in the magazine and the silver screen
saving damsel in distress and in between
peek at the future to look at your granddaughter looking green
and yeah, i'm a super star
i'm acting my scene in front of you

and i wanna be a superficial star
broken hearts and battle scars
poked me my heroine and amphetamine bars
my dirty secrets will take me back to the oscars
and yeah, i'm not a star (yeah you are not a star)
i'm not acting my stupid life in front of you...

i'll be fine, you'll be better, i'll be forgotten, and so will you...
time will not turn back, and i wont be back
you'll learn to let go
until your breathing stop

-an unfinish song-

Peanut butter cookies

she takes the pill, in her head it's real
she cuts her hand, his name all in blood
she take her life, and she leave the hive
no, there's no romeo,no, there's no juliet,
love is dead,
deny your aneroxia, no food for thought
gothic eyes of hers, another one i fear
a pegeant to your name, and the price for fame ?
the needs desire, is the need in dire
no there's no game,no there's no prize,
lust is dust,
gunned with the looks, a prowler on hooks,
levity against gravity, a mutiny against naivity,
pull the string, make him sting,
no, he's no angel,no, he's no worthy,
attraction is physical,
bring me back to a life once real
bring me back to a life once humble
bring me back to a life once a lie
fabrication of the truth ?
or a mere uncertainty
of life heading the downward spiral ?

lost and found

things we've lost
things we've found
all of which
are valued in money
what price you'd pay?
for a day of joy
the life we knew
are a thing of the past
no sound of the wave
slamming the rocky beaches
things we've lost
things we've found
all of which
are treasured in memories

Dumb

life, life is big
big, big is you
you, you is beauty
beauty, beauty is scarce
everything comes in smaller package now
everything goes in full circle now

hide away

solemn echo into the faintest of sound
break the barrier, we were uncovered again
empty spaces and void of emotion
a scent of a chain reaction

colourful lights on the blackened nights
dampen my already blurry sights
help me scale the new heights
chase away my only frights
it's only you
it's only me

this too shall past

"this too shall past" --- my best friend wedding

dark cloud, the hunter within

my jealous knows no boundary
i'm the evil lurking just 2 steps behind you
my ghouls send your heart racing
i'm a step too far to turn back now

left and right, a gory sight
the world is gone, and i come undone
i'll hunt you down, even in your dreams
you cant escape, your destiny is mine

i craft for your blood
my princess from hell
i'll be your knight
my true colour will soon surface

dont look back in vengance
for you are what you were
i'm merely a punishment of your sin
for once which you cant runaway from

pain is temporary and it will soon fade
as i learn from my mistake
your heart is cold, your love is bold
make no mistake, i will behold
i will fulfill my revenge...

fill in the blank

fill me with ..... my precious ones
i'm out of steam so i cant rise
you are my drugs, my addiction to lust
on a day that seem so far and away

give me your amphetamine
leave me high, overdose on you
oneday i'll say "i'm addicted to you"
i'm yours though you was never mine

give me fuel, give me fire, give me that what i desire...

*contain words from metallica's feul...

new lease

i seek anew. in a world of few. the morning dew. inspiration grew.
faults are routine.
complaining is far easier than doing something about it.
i seek anew. in a world of few. the somber hue. emotions are drew.
a pale shadow of limbering uncertainty.
dark clouds, the hunter within.
i seek anew
in a world of few
my pain are true
you and i knew.