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changes can be hard to accept...
but it's not something you can turn away or hide from...
deal with it

run (snow patrol)

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

safety in numbers

i look around only to realise that i dont belong
people saw what they wanted see
i saw my worse fear metarialised
inability to be with the crowd
was it me? or them? at fault?

like an eye-sore, longing for belonging
as the day is filled with melancholy
seeking solace, somewhere in your hapiness
losing my grip and fall into oblivion
was it me? or them? at fault?

i am insignificant
without further explanation
i am magnificent
only in my own twisted dimension
i am, after all, just a fragment of my own imagination
seeking safety in numbers

peanut butter cookies (re-post with some edit)

she takes the pill, in her head it's real,
she cuts her hand, his name all in blood,
she take her life, and she leave the hive,
no romeo, no juliet and no happy ending,
love is dead,

deny your aneroxia, no food for thoughts
gothic eyes of hers, another one i fear,
a pageant to your name, and the price for fame?
you pay for names, all you got is shame
the needs desire, is the need in dire
no there's no game,no there's no prize,
lust is dust,

gunned with the looks, a prowler on hooks,
levity against gravity, a mutiny against naivity,
pull the string, make him sting,
no, he's no angel, no, he's not worthy,
attraction is physical,

bring me back to a life once real
bring me back to a life once humble
bring me back to a life once a lie
fabrication of the truth ?
or a mere uncertainty
of life heading the downward spiral ?

lonliness

alone...

dusted from the effect of yesteryears...

lonely...

left untouched in the corner of time...

isolation...

beautiful but only from a far...

i dont want to be lonely...

i just wanna be alone...

my heart is the worst kind of weapon

I spent most of last night dragging this lake for the corpses of all my past mistakes sell me out - the joke's on you we are salt - you are the wound empty another bottle and let me tear you to pieces this is me wishing you into the worst situations I'm the kind of kid that can't let anything go but you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat
Your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears rather ones that just don't care because I know that you're in between arms somewhere next to heartbeats where you shouldn't dare sleep I'll teach you a lesson for keeping secrets from me
Take your taste backpeel back your skin and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while oh once in a while
And did you hear the news? I could dissect you and gut you on this stage not as eloquent as I may have imagined but it will get the job done (you're done) every line is plotted and designed to leave you standing on your bedroom window's ledge and everyone else that it hits that it gets to is nothing more than collateral damage
Take your taste backpeel back your skin and try to forget how it feels inside you should try saying no once in a while oh once in a while

my heart is the worst kind of weapon -- the fallout boy (My Heart Will Always Be The B-side To My Tongue, 2004)

what we're not

we're not polluted, just a little confused,
we're not vulgar, just a little anger,
we're not just another, we're one as a whole,
we're not gonna make it, but you're past it,
we're not the ones who failed, you're the ones who seems frailed,
we're living in it, you just passing in it,
we're never gonna be it, you will keep insisting on it,
we're different, you're just normal,
we're not a freak, but you will never give it a break,
our eyes have seen the glory, you will always face us with fury,
we're waking in the falling rain, braving the thing called pain,
you'll be on our heels, like a leech that you dont feel,
we're more than what you think,
but you will never be more than just a blink,
too sudden to noticed.
too insufficient to mattered.

youth of working class.

the wait

waiting for someone that is not you
are you waiting for me?
this waiting game has got to end
we are waiting for a change in the weather
so we can get on with our lives

why can't you wait a little longer?
we could be waiting a long time
so i sing with all my heart but not for you
just why can I wait a for mere rain to end?
time and tide waits for no man, and so does the train

i am waiting for another one like you
for all this wait, she better be worthy
love is a waiting game, rushing it and you'll end up hurting
she couldn't wait, he wouldn't wait
now they can't wait to be late...

** while waiting for the rain to end so i can go to work.. and damn it's cold out here

Amplified Breakup

kisses blown, marked the parting ways
tear the tears, heavenly perished with the darken of daylights
scream in silent, so loud, you bleed on your own
shadowy memories in a distant car park
a morphine fix and those sinned photographs
the smile on him, when the lust is fulfilled
he is the dark knight, only you saw the shinning armour
why do you still wanted him ?

Incognito

We are all masked.

hidden.

conceal.

away from the numbers.

superficial star

and i wanna be a movie star
saving the world over and over
living in a trailer with superficial poster
and yeah, i'm a movie star
i'm acting my whole life in front of you

and i wanna be a super star
my live is in the magazine and the silver screen
saving damsel in distress and in between
peek at the future to look at your granddaughter looking green
and yeah, i'm a super star
i'm acting my scene in front of you

and i wanna be a superficial star
broken hearts and battle scars
poked me my heroine and amphetamine bars
my dirty secrets will take me back to the oscars
and yeah, i'm not a star (yeah you are not a star)
i'm not acting my stupid life in front of you...

i'll be fine, you'll be better, i'll be forgotten, and so will you...
time will not turn back, and i wont be back
you'll learn to let go
until your breathing stop

-an unfinish song-

Peanut butter cookies

she takes the pill, in her head it's real
she cuts her hand, his name all in blood
she take her life, and she leave the hive
no, there's no romeo,no, there's no juliet,
love is dead,
deny your aneroxia, no food for thought
gothic eyes of hers, another one i fear
a pegeant to your name, and the price for fame ?
the needs desire, is the need in dire
no there's no game,no there's no prize,
lust is dust,
gunned with the looks, a prowler on hooks,
levity against gravity, a mutiny against naivity,
pull the string, make him sting,
no, he's no angel,no, he's no worthy,
attraction is physical,
bring me back to a life once real
bring me back to a life once humble
bring me back to a life once a lie
fabrication of the truth ?
or a mere uncertainty
of life heading the downward spiral ?

lost and found

things we've lost
things we've found
all of which
are valued in money
what price you'd pay?
for a day of joy
the life we knew
are a thing of the past
no sound of the wave
slamming the rocky beaches
things we've lost
things we've found
all of which
are treasured in memories

Dumb

life, life is big
big, big is you
you, you is beauty
beauty, beauty is scarce
everything comes in smaller package now
everything goes in full circle now

hide away

solemn echo into the faintest of sound
break the barrier, we were uncovered again
empty spaces and void of emotion
a scent of a chain reaction

colourful lights on the blackened nights
dampen my already blurry sights
help me scale the new heights
chase away my only frights
it's only you
it's only me

this too shall past

"this too shall past" --- my best friend wedding

dark cloud, the hunter within

my jealous knows no boundary
i'm the evil lurking just 2 steps behind you
my ghouls send your heart racing
i'm a step too far to turn back now

left and right, a gory sight
the world is gone, and i come undone
i'll hunt you down, even in your dreams
you cant escape, your destiny is mine

i craft for your blood
my princess from hell
i'll be your knight
my true colour will soon surface

dont look back in vengance
for you are what you were
i'm merely a punishment of your sin
for once which you cant runaway from

pain is temporary and it will soon fade
as i learn from my mistake
your heart is cold, your love is bold
make no mistake, i will behold
i will fulfill my revenge...

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fill me with ..... my precious ones
i'm out of steam so i cant rise
you are my drugs, my addiction to lust
on a day that seem so far and away

give me your amphetamine
leave me high, overdose on you
oneday i'll say "i'm addicted to you"
i'm yours though you was never mine

give me fuel, give me fire, give me that what i desire...

*contain words from metallica's feul...

new lease

i seek anew. in a world of few. the morning dew. inspiration grew.
faults are routine.
complaining is far easier than doing something about it.
i seek anew. in a world of few. the somber hue. emotions are drew.
a pale shadow of limbering uncertainty.
dark clouds, the hunter within.
i seek anew
in a world of few
my pain are true
you and i knew.