Chorus of fancy sauce

 Go, go

Fallin' like a yo-yo

Paradise for locos

Medicate my sorrow

I'm not crazy

You're the one that's crazy

Everybody's crazy

Gettin' stoned and lazy

As we all die young someday

We all die young someday

We all die young and watch it slip away

We all die young someday

the blues

Is this the New Year or just another night?

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Terang. 
Gelap.
Hilang dan mengharap.
Bukan kesat tapi sesat
Hakikat yang terlalu berat
Bait kata kata yang enggan bicara
Tertutup rapat
Dan sunyi tidak bermadah

Headstone(r)

and for every words we've exchanged
lies the fault line
where my heart break
little by little...

The fall

I am faltering,
My prudence attempt to be graceful in defeat,
Hiding the fact that I'm out on a limb,
trying hard to maintain the status quo,
the exigency to keep the bitterness away,
engulfing the very thing I cherish the most,
The voice, the sound and the beating of my heart.

The silver lining,
the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow,
The lies people tell to maintain the status quo,
A last resort, desperately and definitely... maybe?
Equilibrium is a myth, a poignant reminder,
Walking on eggshells and you'll get hurt easily,
you got to wear shoes in the real world,

Wait,... what ?
Forever is a very long time to be living in a lie,
Because if its not this, it'll be something else,


* contain quote from the movie elizabethtown

Au Revoir

that good bye
simple yet powerful
drowned me
underneath a wave of farewell
that stare of unspoken words
that marked the parting of our ways
no longer together
not even for a breather
so long
so long
my precious, we don't belong
nothing hurts like this sad love song
Writing rhyme that feels so strong
but yet seems so wrong
though it feel so right
in the middle of the night
you can call it a fright
because losing you
will never ever be right

Sepi itu suka berteman

Sepi itu tidak hadir tanpa ditemani si kembarnya sedih,
Duduk bersimpuh setia menemani hati yang dilanda pedih,
Adakalanya dia di sapa sang amarah, menghamburkan kata nista,
Tiada penawar buat sepi yang setia itu kecuali masa,
Kerna masa bisa menawarkan segala duka lara.

Dan lalu bangkitlah wahai hati yang berteman sedih,
Kerana hari esok pasti akan tiba, dan siapa yang tahu apa akan dibawanya
Simpankan harapan pada hilangnya kecerahan cahaya mentari siang
Kerna gelap malam membawa kesepian yang membutakan mata
Apabila kehilangan, baru lah kita sedar akan apa yang kita pernah miliki.

Sulamkan pada genggaman
Sematkan pada kudrat hati
Tiada keciwa yang kekal 
Kerana ianya adalah satu hiasan sementara

Susunkan semua cerita tentang dia
Kronologi sebuah siksa
Bukukan pengalaman dan letakkan di almari kisah hidupmu
Kerana kesilapan itu tiada erti jika tidak disesali

Buangkan dendam itu
Ke lautan dalam dan gelap
Dia hanya satu nama dalam senarai yang panjang
Ini bukan kali terakhir kau akan berteman dengan sepi

*

No luck stranger

I am having no luck trying to see us through your eyes...
The perseverance weakens, my foothold slips,
and I fall down this long and winding tunnel,
living all the persistence that comes to nothing
(nice job Mr. I leave it too late)

Uncommon ground to lie on
bedding in all the disappointment
while the fury of another failure
sinking in strengthening the will to carry on
and in some distant future
Success lie waiting to be claimed

I am having no luck trying to see you now through my eyes
your grip is slipping and no longer weakens me
this fall while bad enough to 'cause an heartache
is a blessing in disguise, sunshine after the storm

I guess I should let it just be
Things happened for a reason
And I got no reason to
be bitter at what had happened
We are having no luck at being there for each other
So let just be strangers in a strange land

Loser like me

I must have liked you so much to drop everything at the hint of you needing me to be there...
but I don't blame you for not reciprocating...
for I am a loser...
I do not deserved your attention...
but  you are just too cute for me to respect myself enough to walk away...

I'll get it right someday...
have the courage to walk in the other direction
for now, I'll linger in the hope that you will change
realize that I may not be the perfection you seek
but I will try harder than those guys

because when we are together
everything's magic

her boyfriend don't even care

A reflections
on the mirror, a shade of grey
a memory
standing still, in the middle ground
choices made, blinded by emotions
We should talk and not just speak

Troubles
brewing on the west bank
a reminder
of the time when we walk in space
together in a bliss
no worries of the event unfolding

A paradise
Promises that went unfulfilled
a place to call home
lying through your teeth
leaving us to fall apart
and the separation of each other

Right now

right now nothing is more expensive than regret...

right now no one is safe from lonliness

right now justice is being perverted in a court of law

right now you could be outside

right now the light from the star in M-5 is heading toward earth

right now guilt is turning someone inside out

right now youth is king

 

 

paper lanterns

So when are All my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding nOW that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you

burnt bridges

The finer things in life...
The most intimate secret of ours...
The shadow of the past that kept haunting you...
The future that were never meant to be...
 

Why am I still here ?

as the days turned to months
the bitter taste turned sweet
as the tug of war gets interesting
the pulling and the letting go
and so the game begins

and then the months turned to years
the feeling slowly wane and fade away
left on the wayside, gathering pace
On a downhill motion, the steep slope of a relationship
and so the game peaked

and slowly they fall apart
to a point of no return
when the heart no longer registered the one face   
to stay together is like lighting oneself on fire
not the way to play the game

and as the taste slowly turned sour
she'll began to realize
an epiphany,

"why am I still here"

burn heart burn...

I finally knows how it feel when your heart sank... it literally feels like your heart sank... that emptiness in your chest... that forced smiles and the brave face you put on... you're alive but it feels dead...

losing my will to live on...

"..and sometimes you closed your eyes and see the place where you used to live when you were young "

Events transpired without any hesitation and i am clueless as to why do i still lingered here. My aim is not set in stone and as far as i could see, the goal is no longer viable if stick here for long... I need a change, be it mentally, spiritually or physically... i need to be away, far from here (if it is only to be back here in the end... I bet it'll be worth it)...

The time has come for remembering what was lost in the not so distant past ago....

And you (walk on)

I love you
I hate you
I'd lie to you
I'd lie for you
I should have not told you this

I envy you
I want to be with you
I'd die for you
I'd let you die
I would let you save me (again)

I think you're hot
I think you're not
I'd remember you
I'd forget you
I never thought it'll come to this

I adore you
I disgust you
I'd take back what I've said
I'd do you again and again
I should have never let it come to this

I should have realized
I should have said the right words
I would have done it
If only I know
That time waits for no one but itself

the square root of three

** From the movie, Harold and Kumar - Escape from Guantanamo bay

the square root of three

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

dont have it all

Moving?

Out??

Soon??

Yeeehaaaa!!!!!!!!!

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