longing for belonging

outside, looking in
sampling emotions
an umbrella for the rainy days
inside looking outward

lurking for an opening
longing for belonging

outside, looking in
wandering thoughts
a silent question
"how must have it felt like?"

to belong, to believe and to be loved

outside, looking in
wasted on excitement
jealousy breeds anger
to belong on the inside

lurking for an opening
longing for belonging

inside, looking outward
guilty pleasures
ashamed by the joy
awkward sense of acceptance

outside, looking in
longing for belonging
inside, looking out
lurking for an opening

Don't know. don't care, don't give a damn!

i don't know if it will ever be an epic like you'd want it to be
i don't know if the world is big enough for the both of us
i don't know if what was said and done is reflecting my true intention
i don't know if I'll ever be as good as you'd want me to be
i don't know much about everything
i don't know how to go on when everything seems empty and lifeless
i don't know what will become of us once words lost their meaning
i don't know if the truth is harder to swallow than reality itself
i don't know when will i grow up... kidding around is a blast
all i know is... the world is fucked up and i'm trapped...