the blues

Is this the New Year or just another night?

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Terang. 
Gelap.
Hilang dan mengharap.
Bukan kesat tapi sesat
Hakikat yang terlalu berat
Bait kata kata yang enggan bicara
Tertutup rapat
Dan sunyi tidak bermadah

Headstone(r)

and for every words we've exchanged
lies the fault line
where my heart break
little by little...

The fall

I am faltering,
My prudence attempt to be graceful in defeat,
Hiding the fact that I'm out on a limb,
trying hard to maintain the status quo,
the exigency to keep the bitterness away,
engulfing the very thing I cherish the most,
The voice, the sound and the beating of my heart.

The silver lining,
the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow,
The lies people tell to maintain the status quo,
A last resort, desperately and definitely... maybe?
Equilibrium is a myth, a poignant reminder,
Walking on eggshells and you'll get hurt easily,
you got to wear shoes in the real world,

Wait,... what ?
Forever is a very long time to be living in a lie,
Because if its not this, it'll be something else,


* contain quote from the movie elizabethtown

Au Revoir

that good bye
simple yet powerful
drowned me
underneath a wave of farewell
that stare of unspoken words
that marked the parting of our ways
no longer together
not even for a breather
so long
so long
my precious, we don't belong
nothing hurts like this sad love song
Writing rhyme that feels so strong
but yet seems so wrong
though it feel so right
in the middle of the night
you can call it a fright
because losing you
will never ever be right

Sepi itu suka berteman

Sepi itu tidak hadir tanpa ditemani si kembarnya sedih,
Duduk bersimpuh setia menemani hati yang dilanda pedih,
Adakalanya dia di sapa sang amarah, menghamburkan kata nista,
Tiada penawar buat sepi yang setia itu kecuali masa,
Kerna masa bisa menawarkan segala duka lara.

Dan lalu bangkitlah wahai hati yang berteman sedih,
Kerana hari esok pasti akan tiba, dan siapa yang tahu apa akan dibawanya
Simpankan harapan pada hilangnya kecerahan cahaya mentari siang
Kerna gelap malam membawa kesepian yang membutakan mata
Apabila kehilangan, baru lah kita sedar akan apa yang kita pernah miliki.

Sulamkan pada genggaman
Sematkan pada kudrat hati
Tiada keciwa yang kekal 
Kerana ianya adalah satu hiasan sementara

Susunkan semua cerita tentang dia
Kronologi sebuah siksa
Bukukan pengalaman dan letakkan di almari kisah hidupmu
Kerana kesilapan itu tiada erti jika tidak disesali

Buangkan dendam itu
Ke lautan dalam dan gelap
Dia hanya satu nama dalam senarai yang panjang
Ini bukan kali terakhir kau akan berteman dengan sepi

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No luck stranger

I am having no luck trying to see us through your eyes...
The perseverance weakens, my foothold slips,
and I fall down this long and winding tunnel,
living all the persistence that comes to nothing
(nice job Mr. I leave it too late)

Uncommon ground to lie on
bedding in all the disappointment
while the fury of another failure
sinking in strengthening the will to carry on
and in some distant future
Success lie waiting to be claimed

I am having no luck trying to see you now through my eyes
your grip is slipping and no longer weakens me
this fall while bad enough to 'cause an heartache
is a blessing in disguise, sunshine after the storm

I guess I should let it just be
Things happened for a reason
And I got no reason to
be bitter at what had happened
We are having no luck at being there for each other
So let just be strangers in a strange land